Riding Out The Calm

Last night, a feeling of calm washed over me that I haven’t felt in a long time. I have grown to completely distrust this feeling. It seems that after the calm inevitably comes the storm. Perhaps the calm is a warning that the storm is coming and a reminder of the storms that I have weathered in the past and [...]

Weary

Weary of mind, weary of body, weary of soul.
I am left with unanswerable questions.
You wandered off to paths that none should tread.
Searching for treasures
Finding nothing
Losing all.
Forsaking the sunlit paths, you chose the darkness.
Gazing into that darkness, I grow numb.
I send you hope to find the light once more. 

Gray

 Yesterday was gray. One of those days where the gray seeps down and caresses the tops of the trees. The clouds did not give up their rain but left a slickness of moisture upon the land. As I sat in my backyard sipping hot chocalate feeling it’s fragrant warmth against my face with every sip, I [...]

Trepidation

 
My son has Asperger’s Syndrome. At home, he is a loving child but out in the world, he is extremely shy, does not speak unless spoken to and then seems frightened; as if any answer that he gives will be wrong and something that he fears will be punished.
I worry about him. Will he grow [...]

On Silence

I haven’t posted here in so long that I don’t know if I will be able to subdue my thoughts. I could blame not posting on life, for sometimes life does have a way of sorting through priorities. I could blame it on writer’s block, for sometimes words have a way of freezing up between [...]

Listen

 
Ever so softly the fairie muses whisper, ‘Create.’ But I sit in oblivion, writing doggerel, failing in my despair. Soft tales of love, psalms of hope, or gestures of peace elude me. Perhaps that is the way of things. To every life some rain must fall. So I sit listening to the rain trace it’s [...]

Raindrops And Moonbeams

 
I have always had a hard time falling asleep. My mind often refuses to disengage. It keeps rambling on; regurgitating the events of the day and at times memories of long ago. I have grown to enjoy this time when the world is silent. The white noise of the air conditioning and the breathing of [...]

Farewells

 
Over a year and a half ago, an old and at one time very close friend of mine passed away. She fought with her internal demons and finally lost to them finally succumbing to complications from anorexia.
I knew her my whole life. We started to Kindergarten together. In Junior High, I went on my first [...]

Into The Cold

I sat in the cafe watching the heat come off the cup of coffee sitting in front of me. I picked up the cup in order to take that first test sip in order to better gauge it’s heat. Over the rim of the cup, I caught a vision from my past.
There she sat chatting [...]

That Is When I Knew ( A Valentine’s Day Post )

 
Memories are often like vague puffs of smoke obscured by the winds of time. Yet, I remember the moment that I knew that I had found the woman that I wished to share the rest of my life. I remember it with a clarity of vision that in almost twelve years has never wavered.
It was [...]